My journey of becomming myself.
Unless you’re not Filipino, then I don’t expect that you are already informed by what has been said by Manny Pacquiao, or who he is. He’s a Filipino boxing legend to cut it short and is also a Filipino politician(at least, I think he still is) who lives and trains in LA.
From what I have read…
Hello! Been awhile since the last time I posted here on tumblr. There were so many things happened in my life and one of the greatest things that I can share to you guys is my transition. Woohoo! I’ve been on T for 24 weeks now and on the coming 15th of April marks my 6 month on T. Weee! I still can’t explain the happiness that I’ve felt since day one and constantly feeling up until now. It’s the best! Everything about my transition is the best! Even if I’ve gone through a lot of hardships, misunderstandings, judgments, uncountable dysphoria’s, still I am the happiest. I will not let any of those pull me down. I am already on my way of fulfilling my destiny and I will not surrender this. Not now. Never.
My life right now is full of shit. Today is the first day of December and I’ts exactly 25 days before my birthday but WTF? Everything around me is going crazy. People around me is leaving me. They’re not even concerned on what I’m feeling right now. It’s bullshit. I hate my life.
I’m really weird today. I feel weird, thinking weird. Just WEIRD. Haha. But seriously, I came across and read an article about symptoms when testosterone is increasing in your body. One that caught my attention says that having S** (LOL) regularly increases t in your body. You know what I mean with the S word right? Haha. *Wink. And later today I just felt and realized that there were some changes occurring in me. (that’s the point of this post. I’m not sure at all if this is really because of T naturally increasing in my body or just a mere illusion of someone who wants to be on T. Haha.)
Changes includes;
*Hair growing in my neck. If you look closer, you can see that the pores is getting big and you know that the growing of hair there is really happening. (Creepy.)
*I get annoyed so easily. And I do get mad easily. I dunno why. I wasn’t like this but ever since my girlfriend and I had S regularly, this suddenly came into existence.
*Also muscle growth! I don’t workout that much anymore but I can still feel the muscles growing. And It’s pretty weird!
I don’t want to assume anything but I just feel very weird about this sudden changes. It’s cool. Haha.
Sorry if this post is full of WEIRD word. Because yeah, I REALLY DO FEEL WEIRD. Hahaha.
Take care, brothers!
I just thought of making a new tumblr account. Why? Erm. Maybe because I really feel dysphoric now a days. *Sigh. Maybe I just want to talk with people who may understand me more (in a trans person perspective) because as what I see, nobody really accepts me for who I am here. People are so judgmental and it hurts me so much. They judge me because of my appearance and even my gender and its so frustrating. :( But yeah, that’s reality and there’s nothing I can do with that.
Feel free to talk with me. :)) I’m a soon to be FTM. :))) Not quite but will be taking tribulus real soon. Hihi. Soo excited. Wish me luck. :) I want to meet new people and trans bro’s out there. Spread the love. Spread the pride. You all rock! Peace out. :3
